“I was here”

I wanna do something that matters
Say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better
With the time I was given
I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less than something that says
I was here – I Was Here, performed by Kristin Chenoweth

With this being Thanksgiving, I guess I’m grateful for the opportunity to explore how this will happen. I am thankful that I have the resources, both emotional and otherwise, to live my life how I want to.  Needless to say, I am thankful for family, friends and various furry creatures who impact my life in a myriad of ways.

Nevertheless…

I still struggle with the should-haves, would-haves, should-I’s of life.

I wonder if I should be more socially active, more directly involved in causes… if my completely corporate/academic jobs are a cop-out from dealing with the tough stuff as a person with a medical condition.  And yet, I like the freedom of not being defined by my condition.

So I think the answer is that I’m still figuring out my place in this complicated, convoluted series of communities.  I will find a way to say “I was here” in my own way, sometime. Maybe this writing process is it, after all.